Recently I’ve been reminded of the many reasons my husband and I decided we would make the sacrifice of living on one income, so I could be at home with our children. I wanted to be there for them, to be the one to instruct them in these very formative first years. To give them the stability and security that comes from mom being there to wipe their tears, to give encouragement, to be involved in their school. I didn’t want to miss out on important milestones like their first words and their first steps. My desire was to provide a godly atmosphere for them to grow in and to surround them with love consistently.
Unfortunately, the last few weeks have been CRAZY to say the least. Every thing has suffered: my ability to be there for my children, my involvement in their school, my chores around the house and even my relationship with God. I take my hat off to mothers who are able to maintain a full time job, take classes, be in Church consistently and still find time to play with and instruct their kids.
As I type up this blog my youngest Joel, is snuggled in my arm. We just got through the morning rush of getting the kids through the door and usually now I would read with him or play a little before his nap, but not so today. Today there are Hat orders to finish up, Phone calls to make, Millinery materials to buy and Hats to be shipped. Then before I can eat anything, it’ll be time to pick up my kids, prepare afterschool snack, look over their homework, make dinner and iron everybody’s clothes for the next day (ideally).
How I miss the simpler days, but I probably wouldn’t be happy without my hat business anymore. I love the thrill of creating new designs, challenging myself to make them as close to perfect as possible. Talking on the phone with Grown-ups as I order products and running to Michael’s (the craft store) to pick up last minute supplies. Keeping up to date with this blog and my Paula Nelson Hats blog (which I am going to cancel). Updating my company’s status on Facebook and folding laundry.
So this morning I’m reminding myself why I decided to be a stay at home mom. As much as I love the excitement of what I do and meeting new people, I must remain focus because ultimately God is more concerned with what I did with the souls He has entrusted to me, than how perfect I can make hats.
I’m gonna have to slow down and get some help with the Hat business, so I can focus on what is important, my children. Anyone interested in working with me 🙂 ?