I stood in front of my kitchen sink and worshipped God as I washed our breakfast dishes. My husband was off from work but he was out taking my car to the mechanics. My youngest son Joel, slept securely in his crib; and I worshipped God. I worshipped Him because I was desperate for a new anointing, a deeper relationship, a higher calling. But I felt nothing. Only the desperation and hunger in my soul for a more intimate relationship with Him.
“Why can’t I feel something?” I thought in frustration, as soon the thought entered my mind I felt these words “what does feelings have to do with God?” I allowed my mind to skim through the many scriptures I’ve read over the years, to look more closely at all the great men in the Bible who did mighty things for God. The word “feeling” was NEVER mentioned only “Faith”.
It was then that I understood, “feelings” come and “feelings” go. If I should live by my feelings I would have no character, no self discipline and I would not have accomplished anything in my life because frankly sometimes I just don’t feel up to doing what I should.
My duty is to worship God, to praise Him for His excellent greatness. To thank Him for his unconditional love and his unending mercies. To believe that His words are forever established and what He says He will do, He will do. I may not “feel” His anointing every time I pray, but pray I must. I may not “feel” forgiven when I repent, but His words said “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”
We have a duty to live for God when our bills are due and there is no money to pay them and when our spouse walks out on us and the children. Remember Job? When God wants to make us rapture ready, even our closest friend or family member will not understand. I’m learning more and more that God’s ways are not our ways.
So I ask the question again: What does “feelings” have to do with God? My dear reader, please live your life for God and don’t be concerned about not “feeling” anything. Follow your orders like a good soldier and God will reward you in due season.